Not something to aim for


On normality: “Fuck that shit.”  I think there’s a socially constructed normal way to live, but I don’t think it’s something to aim for.  Who really wants to have average as a goal?

I do deal with anxiety and depression, largely from older failed attempts at being normal, though other people’s reactions to my not trying to be normal are sometimes a contributing factor to my anxiety.

When depression is not being an ass and telling me that I suck, everything I do sucks, and that I should just give up, I am happy and satisfied with my life. When depression is being an ass, I am not satisfied and would really like the depression to shut up.

I am generally relieved by the end of the day, and I run the gamut from happy to angry and energetic to exhausted.
I have felt objectified by communities around me for disability, perceived gender, actual gender, and my asexuality.
How often I get angry depends on my environment. People trying to justify killing disabled children will get me angry every time. I don’t get angry without cause, though.

AAC! Cognitive Interpreters! A friend of mine acts as a cognitive interpreter for me sometimes, because my communication style and syntax are not exactly standard.

— Alyssa

Theoretical Models

  • Sociocultural Model — “I think there is a socially constructed way to live.”
  • Semiotics — This is one quote from Alyssa, which highlights a focus on meaning making and language.
  • Phenomenological Theories — Alyssa’s experiences form the basis for her understanding of disability. This type of description is characteristic of a phenomenological description.
  • Social Complexity Theory — Alyssa’s reference to Cognitive Interpreters implies a “small scale society” or a society within a society.
  • Minority Group Model

Published by Sarah Quinto

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